| Saturday, June 10, 2006 |
| Forget Walking the Line....I'm Still trying to Draw it... |
One of the really tricky or trying things during this period....ie...bar review...which started as a 4 week period and has turned into almost two years for me....is the art treading lightly.....or insulating yourself from any possible trauma if possible....or for some...total isolation from the world (CIA....if you are still in cyberspace....I do mean you...)
I failed awfully at this the first time I took the bar....and failed the bar....second time I didn't do much better at it....I think your level of freak out-ability is probably a pretty good barometer of how lightly you are treading right now.... in other words....are you able to just let it roll baby?
In case you haven't noticed by now, I am awfully interested in all the other things that play into this test that affect passing and failing besides just being well prepared....because I know you can be smart as a freaking whip and still come up short....I don't make excuses people....but I don't beat the crap out of myself either....I just want to succeed next time......
I found out last night that my baby bro....who is on probation and sadly enough also has a habit that I will leave unamed for the moment....has skipped town....I know this because his probie officer called me.....this is one of those times that treading lightly comes to mind....and it is especially hard because it feels unnatural and selfish to me...because I talk about all these things but I am still struggling too.....
No doubt....my mom will want to talk about this for hours....but really no time for that right now, and I have to say no...... (of course this is the same mom who gave me away years and years ago.....but that is a whole different issue for another blog I think....) the point is that it is hard for some people maybe to draw lines......how do you say....don't upset me while I study for this freakin test ok?
.....for me it is still an issue my with my boss.....he wants to talk ALL THE TIME about why I haven't passed the bar yet, (he really thinks it a conspiracy because I went to school out of state bless his heart) and how the office is in FINANCIAL RUIN without me.....since that makes me feel shitty, I draw the line with him....this may sound idiotic to some of you....but for me....a huge step......this man is going to be my business partner....saying no takes nads
I feel better every time I stand up for myself....will it help me pass? I think yes....every bit of piece of mind and serenity you can give yourself while you gear up for this bitch exam is a gift you HAVE TO HAVE and you are freaking entitled to it...I am putting this in print because even though I believe these words....I still have to do some inner battle over them.....
Ok enough!!!! Go meditate or something.... |
posted by Bar Bitch @ 9:05 AM   |
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Barbitch--
Thought I'd throw my two cents in, try to help a bit. Have you tried Adaptibar for the MBE? It is a GODSEND. It's all online, and it kicks ass all over PMBR or whatever the hell else is out there. It actually adapts to your strenghs and weaknesses so you don't keep doing question types you are already good at. A serious timesaver. My MBE score SKYROCKETED. It isn't too late to sign up, and I think it's only like $145.00 or something. Can't push this enough. In any event, good luck. YOU WILL PASS.
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Barbitch--
Thought I'd throw my two cents in, try to help a bit. Have you tried Adaptibar for the MBE? It is a GODSEND. It's all online, and it kicks ass all over PMBR or whatever the hell else is out there. It actually adapts to your strenghs and weaknesses so you don't keep doing question types you are already good at. A serious timesaver. My MBE score SKYROCKETED. It isn't too late to sign up, and I think it's only like $145.00 or something. Can't push this enough. In any event, good luck. YOU WILL PASS.