| Saturday, April 14, 2007 |
| Unreasonable people rule the world |
Wow.....what an outpouring.....I am so touched....really you have no idea.....there were over 500 congrats since my last posting, and thanks from the bottom of my heart to every one of you who cared about my ongoing bar drama, even though I can't possibly post them all.....I had no idea so many people had a vested interest in me passing the bar (finally).....
I'd like to write a little tonight about being "unreasonable" .....I have to tell you, so many important people in my life doubted me during this retaking process.....my family at times, my friends, coworkers......it just seemed unrealistic to most people that I would ever pass if I hadn't passed when I'd already taken three and then four shots at this thing.....and I'm not knocking any of them for thinking that way....some of them wanted to save me the grief that is so much a part of not making it, again and again.....I can't count how many times someone told me....don't try again...don't put yourself through it.....
Really though, their responses are reflective of a very common aspect of human nature, if we're honest enough to realize it....most of us are just not fighters....if it gets hard enough, we quit......if someone tells us we suck and won't make it.....we believe them.....if a highly respected group of bar examiners tells us we don't understand enough law to pass their damnable test......we might just think they're right......
I'm not trying to point out what a serious bad ass I am.....I had no idea what kind of capacity I had to slug it out until this thing happened to me.....I didn't know I had it in me to keep on when it looked pretty dumb to keep trying.....what I found amidst all this failure was belief in myself....and that my lovies is the magic bullet for passing the bar.....I learned how to be honest enough with myself to say, "I didn't prepare enough for the first test and that's why I failed"....and subsequently I learned after the tests that followed to say, "I put in the requisite amount of study and I know my answers were sufficient to pass....I don't understand why I haven't passed, but it isn't because I don't know enough law to pass a test that is supposed to test minimum competency....."
Honestly....it is my certain belief that something is amiss with the examining going on here in NC....I understand that the Feb passage rate here in NC was hovering around the 30's.....I find that outrageous.....having taken so many exams in this state, I can say they seem to be more about limiting admittance than they do about testing for broad based legal competence.....I'm also interested in the fact that as more people apply to take the test (every cycle has produced "record numbers" here in NC)....fewer and fewer are passing.....I encourage everyone to take a hard look at their own state and remember that the guardians of the gate have a vested economic interest in not admitting too many lawyers to practice......also remember that a lot of us who fail the bar simply don't try again....
Bar study will continue business as usual, since I have absolutely zero desire to practice in NC....I think every one probably knows NC has been more of a personal vendetta than anything.....
For those who may be looking for a reason to not quit.....I hope my story provides it for you.....you are the only person who knows what is reasonable.....whether you've spent the time and whether you know the law.....don't let anyone or any bar exam convince you to give up on yourself.... |
posted by Bar Bitch @ 10:19 PM   |
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| Saturday, April 07, 2007 |
| Drum Roll Please...... |
Well...I finally got to see what the passing letter looks like....if you can believe it, after an overwhelming 4 failing attempts, the bar bitch passed on try number 5....after all the grief and self-doubt, the moment is finally here....am I excited? Don't know yet, I'm still numb...hoping they don't send a letter saying it was a mistake....
In an extremely ironic twist of fate.....I accepted an awesome job for a national title company two weeks ago....only problem is that I uh...downplayed my legal education, (uh yeah, I'm not proud of it, but the job was fantastic and I got freakin sick of hearing how "overqualified" I was b/c of the law degree...) so now, if I want to keep this fabulous job in VA....where they are all psyched for me to take the VA Bar, to the tune of paying for the bad boy....I can't even mention that I'm officially a NC lawyer...oh the tangled web we weave...
While I am thrilled, I'm still feeling strangely angry....I still feel disgusted over the whole process....after the amazing amount of time I've devoted to this endeavor, I can honestly say I think there is absolutely something going on that is highly questionable with the NC Bar, (in fairness this last test is the worst set of essays I've ever put out, bar none... I know that for certain, I have no idea who the hell is grading these things, and what they are using a standard, but I think its whacked)....
I'm hoping that all of you got the news you were hoping for....retakers especially..... |
| posted by Bar Bitch @ 10:41 AM |
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